feel like listening this song all of a sudden!!!

tml is going to be my birthday... however, i don't feel excited at all!!!
1st best, close, good friends are not by my side...
2nd new environment...
3rd mit new ppl...
4th new stress...

whenever i laught, not means that i am really happy or felt st funny...
its just for the sick of showing ppl than i'm not those moody type... those who no me will no that i am those crazy tyoe but in this new enviro and those ppl i have not LAUGH FEELING DEEP DOWN IN MY HEART THAT IT IS FUNNY or whatever...
i felt that i was not suppose to be there or st...

so how am i going to spent tml! will be thinking of u guys!!!

AND TURING 18 MEANS I'M GETTING OLDER!!!