i'm super lazy today!!!!!

haha... so many days pass and i have yet really started on any on my project!

i want fries and ice cream!!! miss those 2 combination! super yummy :P... but its super fatting!! haha... sleepy!!!

ok my best friend is not in sing and so dinner today is boring.. haha... i want to be a character in a story book as the life of that character is all written down...

super miss secondary school life... even when i was 50, i'll still remember those days when we are studying for major exam, how i will complain when there 2.4km, how i love maths lesson <3 and many other memory!!!

what did i do wrong this time round???

i merely knew her for 8 weeks and we are group mates...

however i add her in msn but she did not accept and sms her also nv reply....

omg!!! will have a hard time doing project with her!!!

or maybe i am just being too sensitive???

am i sick??

since poly start, i've been thinking of alot of things that start with WHAT IF...

is it because of the environment that cause me to think that way or is it because of getting older, i tend to think of all the thing with a what if...

school is ok sooo far.... seriously hope that i won't mess up this sem and i would be a happy little girl :)

too many thought, too little words to express my feeling.

bye :)

and and and I MISS MY SECONDARY FRIENDS!!! u no who u are!!! love them all. ur the best :)

left with 13 more days and i'll face school again! can i stop the time now so that i can enjoy my holidays??? woke up this morning and i'm totally feeling sick! i have lots of things to say but i just don't no how to write it in words... :( hope that when schools starts, it will be a brand new starts for me and make more friends instead of enemies. since the past one year, many things have change and it beyond my control so i can just sit back and watch what was going to happen. i have to be independ as things have change and i can't just depend on my friends for help... life have been pretty good since holidays starts but it will soon stop as theres school. i'll try to be relax in school and stop being the 'kan chiong' one as people will hate it... learn my lesson but i just can't help but to act that way... so i'll try super hard to stop being kan chiong and relax more and hopefully things will change for the better. my dad have been advising me to mix around with my friends, i wanted too but i can't control that ppl don't one too... so i can only try my best and hope that the situation will change. tml pulau ubin trip with secondary friends :D we have been planning for week already and finally tml is going to arrive soon :) hopelly that my sore throat will recover today :D i'll try to be optimistic!!! :D :D :D

i can't stop worrying... i worry about everything!!!

my new worries
- sometime i can't open PDF files.
- what if i fail exam! :( i want to pass all!

thats all for today...

and i seem to annoyed everyone!!!

what can i do??? :(

If life was a game, i choose mine to be snake and ladder... whats urs?
theres ups and down in the whole process of the game. no matter how u play it you will finally reach to no. 100... but how long would u reach that 100??? for some, it would be 15 mins, for others its not too sure.
its the same as mine life right now... i'm not sure when can i be at the top.. but i'm sure that when i was climing up the ladder, theres a snake that i land into and have to slide down (forgotten if the game was play like this)...
and now, i have to struggle very hard to throw the dice and hopefully i can land on the ladder and climb up again...

life is full of up and down...

its been months that i have last blog...
i really need to vent my stree here sry ah.. haha

school is really stressing me out!!!
i have tried my best in doing all my project and stuff, but whyt am i say or can i say, scold by other for doing it wrong!!!
anw project is going to end soon ^^ but, tml there is HTM!!! omg hope tml went smoothly and there is nothing that is extra.. pls pls pls 'begging'
the rubber band is gonna snap soon!
i was like a fool in school, cause i was like faking a smile all day and i really don't like the feeling of being in the class with the rest!

besides school, other things also worry me!!! there too many to name out!!!
am i sick or wat? i worry over things that people think that its not possible!!!
its not a one day or 2 day thing. it was basically everyday that i worry over anything that comes to my mind...
like eg: CNY coming soon, than i worry that will there be any project meeting during CNY... -.- yes i no, its -.-!!! but u see, i can even worry over this stuff, so now u no what types of things i worry? those things that may not happen!!! but sometime, i worry stuff that will happen and at least i was prepared right?
keep telling myself that i should not worry so much and let nature take it course, but i just can't stop my mind to stop worrying!!!

really admire those who not worry about stuff that i worry. like eg: i worry that i don no how to do the project that is purely in english, as in the project don't have any section that include maths...

and i also worry friendship!!!
like when i sms my friend and they nv replym, in my mind, i was thiking "did i annoyed them or they just purely don't like me so they avoid or don't one to reply my sms'

and finance too
i think most of us heard this before 'money makes the world goes round'

there is a new worry problem that just came to my mind,
- microecon tutorial!!!
--> monopoly!!!
- i don understand what the question was asking for!!! headache ><

if there is only a solution to all my worry (like maths) omg i love maths 1+2 = 3 there's only one answer to it, no others... i only felt confidence when the subject involve maths...

and now, i will let fate decide my furture but i will work hard in everything i do...

worry!!!!!!!!!