Mummy girl

I MISS MY MAMA!!! 

Urge of crying out loud... Mummy been away for only 1 day n I can't stop missing her.. She will be out of town for 4 days!!! 

I really miss her. Can't wait for her to come home. 

Lonely...

Family, friend all beside me... 

However whenever I am free, they seem to be busy or doesn't want to interact with me... 

How I come to this state where no one want to be with me... Am I that annoying? I tried my best to make them laugh.. 

Maybe fated to be all lone for the rest of my left? 

Only when they need me to do thing they will think of me? 

When they really have nothing to do or are board? 

It's ok now... 

Trying my best to be all alone with just my beloved KOPI... 

Doing everything all alone... 

Eat alone

Watch movie alone

Shop alone

Play alone 

I don't ask for more. Just someone who appreciate me for who I am will be great and not for who I am not... 

Welcome to the adult world...

Finally, done with school and now stepping into the society.

Things isn't as simple as what I thought it would be. At Times, having to play around with politic in the office. 

Very recently, just experience a incident that thought me to be wiser. For others that made a mistake, it's for me to see and gain experience. 

Treasure your love one before its too late as they are the only one that will support u no matter what. 

Love, 

Christine 

i'm super lazy today!!!!!

haha... so many days pass and i have yet really started on any on my project!

i want fries and ice cream!!! miss those 2 combination! super yummy :P... but its super fatting!! haha... sleepy!!!

ok my best friend is not in sing and so dinner today is boring.. haha... i want to be a character in a story book as the life of that character is all written down...

super miss secondary school life... even when i was 50, i'll still remember those days when we are studying for major exam, how i will complain when there 2.4km, how i love maths lesson <3 and many other memory!!!

what did i do wrong this time round???

i merely knew her for 8 weeks and we are group mates...

however i add her in msn but she did not accept and sms her also nv reply....

omg!!! will have a hard time doing project with her!!!

or maybe i am just being too sensitive???

am i sick??

since poly start, i've been thinking of alot of things that start with WHAT IF...

is it because of the environment that cause me to think that way or is it because of getting older, i tend to think of all the thing with a what if...

school is ok sooo far.... seriously hope that i won't mess up this sem and i would be a happy little girl :)

too many thought, too little words to express my feeling.

bye :)

and and and I MISS MY SECONDARY FRIENDS!!! u no who u are!!! love them all. ur the best :)

left with 13 more days and i'll face school again! can i stop the time now so that i can enjoy my holidays??? woke up this morning and i'm totally feeling sick! i have lots of things to say but i just don't no how to write it in words... :( hope that when schools starts, it will be a brand new starts for me and make more friends instead of enemies. since the past one year, many things have change and it beyond my control so i can just sit back and watch what was going to happen. i have to be independ as things have change and i can't just depend on my friends for help... life have been pretty good since holidays starts but it will soon stop as theres school. i'll try to be relax in school and stop being the 'kan chiong' one as people will hate it... learn my lesson but i just can't help but to act that way... so i'll try super hard to stop being kan chiong and relax more and hopefully things will change for the better. my dad have been advising me to mix around with my friends, i wanted too but i can't control that ppl don't one too... so i can only try my best and hope that the situation will change. tml pulau ubin trip with secondary friends :D we have been planning for week already and finally tml is going to arrive soon :) hopelly that my sore throat will recover today :D i'll try to be optimistic!!! :D :D :D

i can't stop worrying... i worry about everything!!!

my new worries
- sometime i can't open PDF files.
- what if i fail exam! :( i want to pass all!

thats all for today...

and i seem to annoyed everyone!!!

what can i do??? :(

If life was a game, i choose mine to be snake and ladder... whats urs?
theres ups and down in the whole process of the game. no matter how u play it you will finally reach to no. 100... but how long would u reach that 100??? for some, it would be 15 mins, for others its not too sure.
its the same as mine life right now... i'm not sure when can i be at the top.. but i'm sure that when i was climing up the ladder, theres a snake that i land into and have to slide down (forgotten if the game was play like this)...
and now, i have to struggle very hard to throw the dice and hopefully i can land on the ladder and climb up again...

life is full of up and down...

its been months that i have last blog...
i really need to vent my stree here sry ah.. haha

school is really stressing me out!!!
i have tried my best in doing all my project and stuff, but whyt am i say or can i say, scold by other for doing it wrong!!!
anw project is going to end soon ^^ but, tml there is HTM!!! omg hope tml went smoothly and there is nothing that is extra.. pls pls pls 'begging'
the rubber band is gonna snap soon!
i was like a fool in school, cause i was like faking a smile all day and i really don't like the feeling of being in the class with the rest!

besides school, other things also worry me!!! there too many to name out!!!
am i sick or wat? i worry over things that people think that its not possible!!!
its not a one day or 2 day thing. it was basically everyday that i worry over anything that comes to my mind...
like eg: CNY coming soon, than i worry that will there be any project meeting during CNY... -.- yes i no, its -.-!!! but u see, i can even worry over this stuff, so now u no what types of things i worry? those things that may not happen!!! but sometime, i worry stuff that will happen and at least i was prepared right?
keep telling myself that i should not worry so much and let nature take it course, but i just can't stop my mind to stop worrying!!!

really admire those who not worry about stuff that i worry. like eg: i worry that i don no how to do the project that is purely in english, as in the project don't have any section that include maths...

and i also worry friendship!!!
like when i sms my friend and they nv replym, in my mind, i was thiking "did i annoyed them or they just purely don't like me so they avoid or don't one to reply my sms'

and finance too
i think most of us heard this before 'money makes the world goes round'

there is a new worry problem that just came to my mind,
- microecon tutorial!!!
--> monopoly!!!
- i don understand what the question was asking for!!! headache ><

if there is only a solution to all my worry (like maths) omg i love maths 1+2 = 3 there's only one answer to it, no others... i only felt confidence when the subject involve maths...

and now, i will let fate decide my furture but i will work hard in everything i do...

worry!!!!!!!!!

~FILIAL PIETY~

Hello everyone, todays topic is FILIAL PIETY. Can anyone says that he/she is filial piety? How can anyone knows that they are filial piety. But the most important question is "what is filial piety'

Filial piety is one of the virtues to be held above all else : a respect for the parents and ancestors. So why does some people doesn't understand the important of being filial?
example: once i saw a mother and daughter at a coffee shop. The daughter was shouting at the mother because the mother order the wrong food. The mother keep apologising to the daughter and return to the store and help her order again. At the same time, the daughter's daughter was sitting there looking at both of them. I was wondering, how on earth can one person be so unfilial to their parents. And the best part is, the daughter's daughter was sitting there looking at all her action. I bet, in the near future, her daughter will do the same to her. because she will think that being unfilial is ok she learn it from her mother. Than the cycle will continue until someone teaches her what filial is.
Filial is not about showing people how filial you are to your parents. Filial come naturaly from the heart. its a natural thing like when you were young, most of our parents would care, love, concern and teach us things. they will supports us through hard times, and even if we were a parents of our children, our parents will still care, love, concern about us. we will forever be their little baby. But why, there's still some people out there treating their parents like maid/slave, or doesn't even bother to care for them? Doesn't they love their parent? Don't they feel guilty about ill treating their parents?

Is filial important? For me YES it is! Its not like a " oh i must do it because it my duty, or i have no choice " but its a natural thing that come within my heart and i will do it willingly because i love them no matter what as they are my family. Its a natural cycle that the parents would provide and look after their children and when the parent is old and the children grows up, its the children turns to look after and provide for the parents. So why does some children would leave their parents to beg for food or doesn't visit them? think about it, if you were old, and your children doesn't even bother to care for you, how would you feel? sad? unhappy? angry? whats the point of being sad when u treat your parent that why too.

Therefore, being filial is not about showing to other people how filial you are. Its about how you would truely treat your parents truefully because remember, they are the one who provide you when you were young and rise you up. Thank you.

general purpose : to inform
specific purpose : to inform one how important filial piety is.
thesis statement: allows one to understand why filial is imortant. [correct or wrong?]

main point #1: does some people understand the important of being filial?
sub-point: its not about showing people how filial you are.
main point #2: is filial important?
sub-point: yes it is important.

Just practicing for my speech.

no offence to what i write above.

not refering to anyone.

thank you

~TODAY~

Has anyone wonder, what's ahead for them today? Did anyone of you plan every little step for doing anything today? What you expected for today?

Most of us only expect what will be like for today. "Example, i expected to stay in school till 1pm for my statistics lecture. However, the unexpected happens and it turns out that the lecture was cancel! i doubt anyone of us was there to expected the lecture was cancel! " Because we knew where we were going and what were likely going to happen and thus we expect things. But usually the unexpected happens.

Live life to the fullest. Because by living life to the fullest, we will not end up regretting thing as we knew that we had already tried our best. TODAY, everything is possible to happen, we are not sure if we have the chance to see tomorrow. Because, we does not know what will happen even a second later...

When TODAY passes, its become history. You are not able to rewind the time and do it again. So don't waste a minute. People who treat like for granted, remember that out there, there are people who are struggling their life so that they can see tomorrow.

Therefore, things are unexpected and we should not treat life as if there will always be tomorrow. Thank you

omg, i don't no what am i trying to say

my speech is so confusing!

there's no specific purpose to it!

[no offence to what i said above]

i'm really confuse today. suddenly, i don't know what i want in life.
work? money?
actually i just only want a simple life. one that does not have to worry for cloths, 3 meals, family and not in debt. all i ask for is that simple. is it that difficult?
life is like a game, at the end if the game, u will stop at the ending point. its just the length, and process of how u play it.
as for me. i felt that i am really lazy. if possible, i will not want join or participate any thing in school.
wake up, school, home, wake up, school, home and so on...
i know that most of you out there will be thinking y am i having such a boring life?
the reason? me myself, i'm also not sure. is it the feeling of doing nothing feels good or i don't dare to take risk for trying new things?

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Once again i decided to blog. But this time round, for the benefits of my english.

Has been attending poly for the past 6 month and i realise that there is a need for me to improve my english. When i was young, i was told that english is the most important subject and i have to master it well. However, i choose not to take their advice.

Now that i was studying in the poly, i knew that i had made a mistake that i did not heed their advice. Most of my classmate speak good english and thus i felt very embarrass whenever i had to present my speech! I felt that my english is really bad and i had to put my 110% to improve my english as fast as possible, as i am racing with time. Its too late for me to regrade my action and the only thing left is to work hard and improve my english.

exam exam exam... 2 dowwn, 2 more to go...

statistic was ok for me... but macro, can forgot about it... haha
its like having o level... and worst can't drop any sub... but the good thing is, after exam, u will nv touch this module for ever! haaha...

channel 55 was cancle... it was like there no life... but wat to do? as people say, xian ku hou tian... i hat emy english, it was like so child play...

nv mind...

k box soon ok, yeow shen? my scream my lung out...

when i woke up everyday, the first thing got to my mind was 'exam was nearing' oh no... when i was in sec, i never worry about exam. but now haiz...

ok link to sec... did not went back to nvss on tuesday... like again... this time was becasue of exam... cny, teacher day, speech day etc i nv went back... i miss out too many... must make sure the next event, i may be able to make it back...

miss those time when the only day we can wake up late for school is on wed... too many thing about nvss i was missing... haha...

gtg... :)

monday... monday... monday...
did not speak to my classmate if its not neccessories... felt so weird when i'm in class... nothing common to talk and is like i'm in a stranger place...

ok stop all the sch thing... when i'm at home i don one to think about it!

i slim down abit! yes... the shirt that i once wear it was like going to break but now it ok haha

today was fast!
kind of happy today! :)

No stress...
No School
No Classmates
No Porject today :)

However, when my phone rang, i will jump up and scared the shit out of me... hoping that its not my classmates...

haha... did not sleep well yesterday night haiz...

don even dare to sleep long cause it will waste my weekends...
did some tutorial, but gave up in the middle...

project going to end next week!!! going to give my best.

happy to hear that i'm not alone :) thanx celena and yeow shen for letting me no that i'm not alone and u guys feel the same :)

stress is a must for us to do our best... so just accept it and do my best!!!

as wat yeow shen says... don't expect but accept...

y must i make my life so stress and emo when i'm in school... i think i will change my view and maybe i will accept watever shit was given to me with a smile :)

:) :) :)

everyone out there who are now stress with those project... let us all endure it and everything will come to a stop... :)

school's killing me... i cried because of school!
have those nervous and scared feeling everyday! omg. can anyone please take away the feeling? omg! how? how? how? please stop this feeling within me!
please rob away this feeling...

saw dennis and ys today :) and just wat the first thing dennis ask me? :y u so emo? haha i think he no y i am emo through FB haha.
he asked me something that make me kind of happy... u going back nvss buring national day? the thought of going back there is sooooo happy... anyone going back? but i think its on a friday and we all have school... and i end at 4pm :( haiz... will think of a way
ysysysysysys------ i have nothing to say to u haha..

presentation tml :) yes and i love it
presentation => ending of the whole project :) haha... once all the project end, theres gsm ica! omg and BSA ica2... haiz
exam timetable out! and i only have 4 exam :)))))) yeah! haha...

i hate school sooooooo much....
feel like quiting school for so many time. but did not quit...
hate project..... its all because of project make me hate school so much... i hate school... can someone take away this feeling... please i can't take it any longer...

i hate school and everything!!!

feel like listening this song all of a sudden!!!

tml is going to be my birthday... however, i don't feel excited at all!!!
1st best, close, good friends are not by my side...
2nd new environment...
3rd mit new ppl...
4th new stress...

whenever i laught, not means that i am really happy or felt st funny...
its just for the sick of showing ppl than i'm not those moody type... those who no me will no that i am those crazy tyoe but in this new enviro and those ppl i have not LAUGH FEELING DEEP DOWN IN MY HEART THAT IT IS FUNNY or whatever...
i felt that i was not suppose to be there or st...

so how am i going to spent tml! will be thinking of u guys!!!

AND TURING 18 MEANS I'M GETTING OLDER!!!